I’ve been the fat friend for a while and i want that to end by changing my lifestyle.
My Mum has also nagged me for years about my weight and i know that’s just her caring and not being a bitch. That’s what Mums do!
I also want to feel better about myself and for my boyfriend; since we started going out i’ve gone up like 2/3 dress sizes and i want to get back to how i used to be because he’s stayed the same. He’s been so supportive on my journey so far!
My highest weight was 235lbs and i want to get down to at least 154lbs. My ultimate goal weight is 140lbs. I’m 5’11” tall with a naturally curvy shape. I think at my thinnest I was quite close to Kim Kardashian’s shape (minus the bigger butt).
I want to be able to get the tattoo I want across my ribs and it look perfect because I’ll have a healthier body. I want to be able to wear all the clothes i want and not have to put them back after trying them on because they make me look like a cow in spandex.
After 2 years of college where i had no set school canteen meal and free access to a tuck shop my weight just kept going up and up. Then i found out about my heart condition which meant medication which unfortunately had the side affects of an increased appetite.
Then came university; drunken nights and getting in at 2am and ordering 2 large dominoes pizzas because of the 50% coupons posted under my door which meant i ate pizza for 2 days. Not counting calories and just buying food after lectures whilst hungry also added to it all.
Finally, came my wake up call. Going to the doctors and being asked to get onto the scale. Stepping on and seeing 106kg quickly spin round and the doctor saying the word “obese”, not just overweight but OBESE. The horror that we used to have a TV that weighed 95kg and it took FOUR people to lift it. The bursting into floods of tears when my boyfriend picked me up after my appointment. The shame of looking in the mirror and knowing i’ve hated the way i look since i was about 14. Then deciding that night that i will change and i can change.
Yes there are ups and downs in changing to a healthy lifestyle and not just “going on a diet”. Everyone has ups and downs, it’s not going to be a straight heading to a healthy new you. if it was then everybody would be walking around looking like models/athletes/tv presenters.
I’m doing this the healthy way and of course I occasionally treat myself. I don’t believe in people starving themselves and I won’t follow back blogs that have posts that encourage EDs or self harm.
You have to respect your body and know that you are what you eat. Eating a ridiculously low number of calories is going to slow down your weight loss journey and screw with your system. Your body needs fuel. If a car doesn’t get the right fuel then it doesn’t work correctly. You get what you give. That’s just my view on things.